Speak to my toes

Monday, August 17, 2009

5:46:00 pm

I really don't know if it's just me
or am I really that kind of person?
I feel like a callused sole.
Something that has gone through too much, it has become numb.

I shan't say that I have gone through the WORST of the worst but I know, even if you don't, that I've gone through quite a lot.. Mental struggle maybe. Don't ask what because only I know and since it's a little too much to let others know, I'd rather keep it down.
In case you think otherwise, I'm not actually wallowing in self-pity, because I don't think that pitying yourself helps in any way. These are just some thoughts that have been going on inside my brain for quite some time now.

Like now, I don't think women need men. Okay, maybe for my age group, it should be girls need boys. We don't need boys to excel in our studies, we don't need boys to make us feel beautiful, we don't need boys to gain social acceptance. I used to think that having crushes on boys makes our school life more colourful and exciting and who can deny us of that moment of bliss when he or she looks or talks to you right?

However, think realistically, are these crushes really worth all the headaches? True, you get that thrill of the moment but in the long run, nothing is gained. You just lose concentration in class, which equals to deteriorating studies. You talk about nothing but your crush, which makes you a lot less interesting. Your life just revolves around you and your crush. It's a little pathetic. I might sound cynical, but it's true. Though of course, all of us go through the crushes stages before, including me, like duh? Now that I think about it, I think that at that period of my life, I might have been quite pathetic, thinking about him all day and all night long. But what has it come to now? Nothing. Getting hurt and hurt all over again by your used-to-be close friend and the guy. He was pretty nice. He still is. But nothing can change the fact that there wasn't even anything in the first place; just wishful thinking on my part. All these happened ages ago and I don't know why I'm talking about it now. But, I think that this was the experience that made me not want to trust having crushes so much now. All crushes do are to hurt you, at least most are. If you're one of the lucky 10% few, congratulations(:

As for me, I think I just want to concentrate on my family, my studies and my friends for now. I've had quite enough of crushes. I still love my guy pals though, don't take offence please.

p/s: I still have quite a lot to post about but looking at the time, 10:30,
( I left the comp on while I went for piano).
Oops.. I'd better not.
It's time for bed.

LOUISA

Hello! BOB, bouncyoddball for short, was created some time in 2007 when I was just a little secondary 1 kid. Of course, I still look like a kid, but I most certainly am not anymore!
I was born on the 6th of April 1994
and is under the sign ARIES
Arians may be known to be "fiery" but I think I'm more of the candle flame type of fire. It's not that easy to incur my wrath so please relax but if you somehow happen to do so, don't panic. Just give me time(:
I love my tight-knit family and my adorable friends,whether from my primary school, Rosyth School, or from Nan Chiau High School or from anywhere else.

It doesn't look good with all these information stuck in one paragraph right? Well, too bad :P

In 2010, she was in 4F'10 and is absolutely proud of it
because 4F was and still is one of the MOST UNITED class ever and I love my class<3

Anyway, just for your benefit, I love eggs ( any form of eggs except century egg) and fishballs and ROAST DUCK!
I hope I don't seem like a glutton to you because I HOPE I'm not but I just love food :D

To me, ballet is one of my biggest passion.I might not be awesome at it but at least I love it and that loving it is the most important as without oxygen to keep a flame going, it will just disappear.
Being a pianist is tiring and I know I still have to work harder but I adore it too. I'm also proud to have been a flautist from NCWO and I aspire to be more apt at it.

I hope that after reading this chunk of words, you'd at least know me a little better and understand my usual natterings a lot better. :D:D

HANKERINGS

FOR SCHOOL

In School :
~~Top ten in class~~
A1 for English ( Unfortunately an A2 in O's)
~~B for HigherChinese~~
~~At least 6A1s in O's :D~~

FOR MYSELF
Learn Gymnastics
Stop scratching
605 OUTING:D:D
2ndLALAS OUTING:D
~~New bag (:~~
Les Choristes Special Piano!!
~~Picoult:Nineteen Minutes~~
~~Watch My Sister's Keeper~~
That huge brown tofu
~~A new phone(:~~
~~handphone sock~~ A camera

FOR DANCE & MUSIC
Be more flexible!!!
~~Right split~~
~~Left split~~
Centre split
SMOOTH double pirouette
~~90° front extension~~
~~90° back and side extension~~
A NICE grande jete
Consistency
More than 90°
~~POINTE shoes! :D~~
~~IntF ballet Distinction~~
~~Grade5 theory Distinction~~
~~Grade 5 ballet Distinction~~
Intermediate ballet Distinction!
Proper beats and brises

byebye

605'o6
2e'o8
AMELIA
ALICE
ALICIA
AZIZAH
ARFFAH
ANNQI
BRANDON
BRYAN
CARIE senior
CHERYL CHIA
CHERIE
CHINBEE
CHENGCE
CHON
DOREEN senior
DORISA
ELIZA
ESTHER KOH
GERALDINE senior
FELICIA
GRACE(ballet)
GRIZEL
JASMINE
JUNWEI
JIANING
JETAIME
JESSLYN
JEAN
JORINDA
JOYCE senior
LIXUAN
KENGTENG
LYNETTE senior
LILING
LOUISALEOW
MANTING senior
MELISSA senior
MENGZIE
MELISSA
MR SIVA
POHYIH senior
PEISI senior
PIGGIE
PRISCILLIA
RACHELLE
RACHEL
ROSE
ROYSTON
SHUWEI
SIHUI
SANDY
SINYI
SHARLENE
TIANCONG
TRICIA
VICTORIA
VERNA
WEITONG
WINGYIU
XIUWEI
XINHUI
XIUZHEN
YINGYING senior
YOKELING
YINGMEI
ZHENXUAN
ZHIYU

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